| So hey |
[Aug. 22nd, 2007|10:41 am] |
I realized today, with the help of Laura and the Jennifer, that I haven't posted here for a while.
KKKKKKHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Problem. |
[Jun. 9th, 2007|03:58 pm] |
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I think I have a problem. I have read all the Harry Potter books in the past three weeks that I have been back. In addition....I have knocked out 4 political books and one romance book. The problem-I read a romance book. |
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| Argh Blargh |
[Jun. 7th, 2007|02:54 pm] |
you know, i have done 6 months, so 10 weeks should be nothing...
yeah, I keep telling myself that, but it hasn't really become truth in my mind yet. Here is to 9 weeks tomorrow... |
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| Eh? |
[May. 29th, 2007|04:51 am] |
Been a while eh?
A conversation tonight struck me as an interesting LJ topic so I am writing here. What is my type? What is my usual dating type and what is my usual type that I am attracted to, as they are seemingly two different types?
Attraction-I am usually attracted to smaller girls, maybe because I am larger and feel that I need to protect something. Also, I tend towards the perky to make up for my less than animated personality, some might call it zen (who is kidding, I call it zen). I also go for altos. I don't know why. I don't really care if they are smart or not, and politics really doesn't matter as I have been attracted to the most diehard dem and repub.
Dating-They have to be able to hold a conversation. DEAR GOD. If I can't talk to them about something interesting and have to talk about...omg shoes (unless it is the music video)...they aren't date worthy. Other than that, I guess long hair...and I don't know why there. I guess I like to mess with it.
The question remains why the two are seemingly different. Why my attraction plays not place in who I would date and vice versa. Whatever, I don't really care. Any girl I ask out turns me down and any girl I have dated happens completely by chance...and no, I shit you not. |
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| Home |
[Feb. 4th, 2007|11:20 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Colby | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hospital-Cold War Kids | ] |
It is really good to be back. It is quite cold, but there are things that get around that unfortunate fact. I kind of miss home and I know that I am not going to be back for about 5 months. That worries me a little. I have never been that long from home and I will really miss my friends, family and more importantly...dogs. Anywho, that really isn't the issue. The issue is that I am comfortable here, and I like that.
And my classes kick mother fucking ass. Seriously. 5 government classes that all rule. Can you beat it? |
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| Hokay! |
[Jan. 24th, 2007|09:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  BLAH | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Modest Mouse-I came as a Rat! | ] |
i guess i have some questions in my mind, mostly regarding what the world is coming to, and whether or not I can have any real affect on it. i mean, we see all this shit go down each day and frankly there is nothing we can ever hope to do unless we get in some leadership position. but with that position comes the horribleness associated with it, and if you don't know what that is, then you are just ignorant. so, the question is whether or not it is moral to seek a position of leadership even if your goal is to help people in your country and outside?
i am thinking yes, but i recently heard one of the most convincing arguments for underground/independent movements that i have ever heard. and the best thing about that...it was from someone in a minor position of power within the state of california. now the question for me became whether or not i could ever accept his statement considering where he was in life. but the real question remains - isn't leadership just inherently inmoral? and going along with that, if i sought it, would i be less of the good person that i am right now.
too many times the best people for the job never step up because they don't want to be bothered or they don't want to be changed by the process. so...do i ever want to be a part of the process and help shape what happens, or do i just want to stand back and say...DONT DO THAT or...DO THAT YOU SONNABITCH! i don't know, this is me trying to figure out. the funny thing is that this has been the central debate in life, in one form or another, for the past three years. whether i was willing to suffer in the short term because in the long term the net worth would be amazing. whether i was willing to take orders from oafs named ben who had no idea what was on their ass, but could ask me to look... that is the point, i don't know and i really hate not knowing anymore. i have dealt with this shit for three years and i don't think a fourth is going to be very productive or frankly, good for me. i think i should just decide. this post is too long... |
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| Interesting |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|05:15 pm] |
So, I am not one to actually post interesting and personal stuff on my LJ...but here goes about three sentences.
I feel kinda alone because while I have a lot of my close friends back home here, I have to work all the time and I am not near some of my other close friends. I also don't get to talk to some other people. And to make matters worse, there are some things that I jsut don't have control over, which fucking suck.
That ends me divulging my personal life. Other than that, I relaly need an alto and Tenor for summer...please come to me!!! |
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| New Year's Resolution |
[Jan. 1st, 2007|06:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Los Angeles | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Anooyed? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | None, my ipod was stolen | ] |
I have one main one and a few auxillarly ones as well. The main one is that I not have car issues in the next year. In a period of a week I nearly hit someone who was out of control (thank my lucky stars I did not), I got a parking ticket, and my car was broken into. This cannot happen anymore and frankly it will not.
My other ones include the standard of losing weight, but I am going to throw out that I want to procrastinate a little more to enjoy life far more than I have been. I think school should be secondary to life and I care far more about life. Live and learn I say. I guess another one would be to keep in contact a little more...I have been doing a good job with some friends, but I would like to do it with some others as well. Anyways, that is a short list.
Thus concludes the obligatory New Years post.
On another note, I really don't want to be home for a month, even though it is going to be incredibly awesome. I would rather have so many other things...yeah, whatever.
Happy New Years and go Irish!! |
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| FUCK |
[Dec. 24th, 2006|11:35 pm] |
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FUCK FUCK FUCK. Just fuck... |
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| Great Day |
[Dec. 22nd, 2006|12:00 pm] |
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I just had one of the nicest days I have ever had. I spent all day at Disneyland, chatted with two of my closest friends for a long time and saw some great fireworks (not to mention, that is why it is in Paren, some great food that I really didn't pay for). All in all, a great start to being home. Next up is the road trip to San Francisco and then I will have an awesome internship...here is hoping. |
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| Good Tunes? |
[Dec. 15th, 2006|10:26 am] |
If I was a rich man, I'd buy you some shoes
Tall boots for all the dirt you walk through
What would that do? Enable you to deal
Without schooling you on how to touch what's real
And if I was a smart man, I'd tell you everything that I knew
And give it to you every time you need a talking to
But what would that do? Teach you my guidelines
So you can be a cheerleader at your game on the sidelines
And if I was a driver, I'd keep my headlights on
To see the difference between right and wrong
I'd wear my seatbelt even when I'm in park
Cause I don't trust the other fools that cruise through these parts
And if I was a better cook, I'd hook up a feast
Set a table full of food for the children to eat
I encourage the nourishment so we can breathe
With the knowledge that we got something accomplished
And if I was Santa Claus, I'd fight for the cause
Wouldn't expect nothing in return
I'd give you everything you want, I'd be everything you need
So you can take my hand and I can take the lead
And if I was an honest man
I would stop writing songs
I'd break for a nervous breakdown for breakfast
Tell everyone I knew to stay away from making music
It ain't nothing but a confusing mess (confusing mess)
And if I was you, I wouldn't hear a word I said
Wouldn't trust nothing to start it up inside my head
I'd make a conscious effort to live instead
Of trying to kill the monsters that reside underneath the bed
And if I was a hurt man
I'd find a way to put my faith
Into a woman that could take me from today, maybe
I need somebody that could save me
From the parts of myself that keep making me crazy
And if I was a wise man
I'd climb to the top of the mountain peak
To think about strength versus weakness
I'd find a point that rests a couple of feet above your head
And figure out how I could try to help you reach it
(Ho ho ho)
And if I did have a choice
I'd never want to live forever
Just let me have a voice so I can make my points
I can't imagine running a race with no finish line
Just let me keep my pace and make to most of my time
I love giving but I'm bad at receiving
The truth is, I'd prefer to be the one bleeding
But I'm a paranoid that stays between play and work
Cautious and aware, 'cause I'm afraid of being hurt
Which brings me to the issue
And that would be this:
How often must I ask myself why I exist?
I feel like a freak, this world is a circus
Just trying to find myself as well as my purpose
And if I was Santa Claus, I'd fight for the cause
Wouldn't expect nothing in return
I'd give you everything you want, I'd be everything you need
And you can take my hand and I can take the lead
I got nothing but gifts
Keep it up in my wits
Got me drunk on the fifth
And now we're stuck in a ditch
And as dumb as it gets
I'mma run you some fibs
I wanna touch your lips
I wanna rub your hips
Put a glove on the fist
For the love that exists
We'll keep bumping the hits
To get my bucket of chips
From the Bloods and the Crips
To the skateboarding chicks
Put the Atmosphere on your Christmas wishlist
Put the Atmosphere on your Christmas wishlist
(Ho ho ho ho) |
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| I got a bad disease |
[Dec. 12th, 2006|06:38 pm] |
JUST KIDDING!!!! I am home in 6 Days!!
I have been in a funk lately, and I don't really know what it is going to take to get me out of it. I want to think that I am only in it because I miss home, but I think that it is more about me not being sure if I can succeed in the career path that I have set out for my self. Whatever. I get to see my dogs in 6 days, and that is all I have to remember. |
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| Oh Hell Yeah |
[Nov. 27th, 2006|10:31 pm] |
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I tend to be writing LJs when I am screwed. Well, I am screwed. I have 5 papers due this week. One today (Tuesday), one Wednesday, and three Thursday. You know, going home is great, except when it ends up fucking you over. That being said, about 4 weeks till I am home again. Oh, and I haven't started any of the papers. Cheers. |
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| Home, Home, Home |
[Nov. 19th, 2006|10:28 am] |
I have had subway three times this week and I am coming home in two days. Believe it baby!!!!!
Notre Dame is going to rock SC like the American and North Korean armies!! |
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| Flying hell |
[Nov. 13th, 2006|12:09 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Colby College | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Knuck if you buck-crime mob | ] |
Fuck I feel sick. |
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| Los Angeles Baby |
[Oct. 26th, 2006|01:06 pm] |
Couple of things happening, but I decided just to post some cool lyrics....
Oh yeah) Los Angeles, hot and bothered
Helicopters watch their daughters play parking lot soccer
A whole lot of love from the target's hide
Got a soul looking for a magic carpet ride
Environment, perfect for a hustle
Many people are distracted by the puzzle
And while they're not lookin', the angel got tooken
Welcome to the gray space between fingerprinting and booking
Do your best 'cause the lesson is love
It's enough to keep your head up, another day to get up
Wake up, and let the sun shine through the smog
Free the dialogue 'til everyone believes in God
L.A., to some it's hell, to some it's play
Pay the cover charge and watch what you say
The Barbie doll's caught, body parts come off
And I think she's a he...STOP, look at how it walks
They got the weirdoes, the talent, the beautiful
An arm and a leg for a one-story cubicle
And if the heat don't beat you, the pigs will
Everyone's relaxed, but no one can sit still
Los Angeles... I love it, I love it... |
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| Citing Artisitc Differences.... |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|02:07 pm] |
Opening Credits: No Wrong, No Right - The Beautiful Girls
Waking Up: Children’s Story - Mos Def & Talib (This is a song about going to bed....hmmm)
First Day At School: Speed Trials - Elliot Smith
Falling In Love: Holy Calamity - Handsome Boy Modeling School
Fight Song: Freedom - J5 (Fuck Yeah)
Breaking Up: Minor Thing - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Prom: Milk It - Nirvana (How graphic)
Life: Patience - kos (Fuck you, party mix)
Mental Breakdown: Mechanical Ape - Aquabats!
Driving: I Love You Baby - Puff Daddy and the Family (Strangely accurate?)
Flashback: Evaporated - Ben Folds
Getting Back Together: They Can’t Take that Away - Frank Sinatra (WTF)
Wedding: Where the Streets Have No Name - U2 (Please explain this to me)
Birth of Child: Dringo Bell -Mediaeval Baebes (very ominous)
Final Battle: Lead the Way - Sweatshop Union
Death Scene: Undercover Brother - Go Jimmy Go (Makes no sense whatsoever)
Funeral Song: The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades Is Out to Get Us! - Sufjan Stevens
End Credits: Army - Ben Folds (Yeah, there is a first for everything)
I may have jacked this from Maria and it may be the second time I have done one on this lj.
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool... |
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| You!!! |
[Oct. 13th, 2006|02:46 am] |
Im fucked up right now...not really, but enough that I keep having to retype sentences so that I don't have stuff don't make any sense. So, I am going to pose the question - why do we all suck so hard? Why as human beings can we not just admit we cannot have what we want and just get on with our fucking lives? It woudl make things that much easier.
On a happier note, no class for 5 days. Suck it people without fall break.
P.S. spell check is awesome. caught so much stuff |
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| Gosh Darn It |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|06:33 pm] |
Three papers this week, and my parents are coming at the end of the week. Fuck me. |
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| Colby Return.... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2006|10:07 pm] |
I return to Colby this Friday/Saturday, and I have avoided thinking about going back for so many reasons - whether it be my original intention not to return, or people that I am going to be missing at home, my dogs...- but I am going back. So what does that mean for me? It means taht I actually have to follow through on what I promise myself. And I will do it this time. Four things I have to do:
1.) Go to the gym four times a week. This is an absolute must because I will lose 10 pounds in the first semester, no matter what happens. I even set up my schedule so that I can go to the gym in the mornign before everything else.
2.) Be happy and optimistic. This I cannot stress enough. I will be happy, I will not slip into depression, no matter who calls me, no matter what happens in my personal life. The happier I am, the more I am able to handle and the more I am able to survive.
3.) Keep up with my reading. I didn't last year, and I will this year.
4.) Keep in contact with people back home better. Whether it be though phone, email, AIM...something. I don't want to go another year without talking to some people.
So, those are my goals...we will see if I can actually accomplish that. On top of my goals, I am a little worried about being Dorm President. I am not good with names, I am not that sociable, and I really don't know what I am supposed to do. Now, I don't think that I will have much trouble, but it is still a little worrying.
So, three days until I set off for school...here I come sophmore year. |
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